the meticulous bytch

Monday, October 22, 2007

its mondae!!
i seems to love school so much right after im single
lols

damn bored now
waiting for my group's presentation
and they're long!!
so much information in a persona
gosh!!
i think im dead
hahaas

jus bluff my way through yea
thats me!!

-__________-

it starts with blood this morning
when i wake up
i went to the bathroom (washup time!!)
but i see blood all over my tongue!!
dried blood
irks!!
rinsing
washing
brushing
the bloody taste isnt cleared
guess ive accidentedly bite my tongue in someways
causing the pierced cut wider
but
I STILL CAN MUNCH MUNCH MUNCH
EAT EAT EAT!!
=D

ohyars
gotta update that chocolate that i told you guys abt
its named "ROYCE CHOCOLATE"
and when you buy it you gotta keep them cold alright
available at takashimaya and suntec city

anyway
thanks peeps!!
you know who you are yea!!
accompanying me all the way
paying for me
i was like
*watery eyes*
thanks loads!!
appreciates loads

jasmineloves (:
loves my candyman

ps.this candyman doesnt exist lols

PUNK'D
12:07

Sunday, October 21, 2007

its sundae!!
jus realise i din really write bloggy during weekends
and now im doin it
partly bcos' i havent go work yet!!
lols

oh yea
fridae was a kindda nice day for me
i went for the piercing that i wanted all along
and i did it!!
hahas

---NOTICE---
anyone who's interested in piercing
or wanna pierce can actually go to
peninsula shopping centre
great deal
great place
comfortable feel!!
actual location you gotta call me call me
=)

saturdae while working
was bearing widd the slight pain of my tongue
feeling kindda heaty
HEADACHE!!
went off from my workplace early
was partially bcos' im hitting clubb
so i left earlier
and all thanks to chanel
she work full for me!!
aww
touch touch touched >.<

rushed hm,prepare
heading to town first!!
meeting my part-time bf xinying at wisma
while searching for her i saw sureen and huihui
i was so shocked
but afterall there's no fate
din have the chance to see him
-sigh-

after meeting her for awhile
i went to meet anna,a sista of mine
damn close,we vulgar tgt,we fcuk ppl upside dwn,we chill tgt,we cry tgt,we get drunk tgt,we sing tgt.
loads
loads
loads
the weirdest thing was
i'll only scold slight vulgar when im widd her
when im widd my frens or alone
i don even say a single word of vulgar!!
that was like er~~
hahas

went mos widd her yty night
damn boring!!
partly bcos' i'll was having very bad headache
i left ard 2am!!
i nv ever leave a club that early
lols
i intend to go hm already
but was dragged to 97 another clubb
another boring place!!
i went there
stone outside
left ard 3.30am
-_________-

and then i wake up so late today!!
feverish me!!
my goodness
time now:13.33
gtg work!!

heading towards my candy dream

candyman's hut (:
i cherish

PUNK'D
13:15

Friday, October 19, 2007

its fridaee,the beginning of weekends again!!
i seriously hate every weekends
i just couldn't stop myself thinking of him

GET OVER!!
HE STINKS

-sigh-

saw his updated profile just now
was terrible
maybe he took me as a pretender
i know no matter how much i explain or wadd i do,
it doesnt helps in amending the barrier
everything is really over

if he choose to be a professional fling
hanging out widd professional flirt
congrats

im speechless

yty's mood was duper down already

i wan my dream to be in candyman's hut!!
can i?

PEEPS!!
date me out on weekends often ehs
i'm damn free
drag me out no matter wadd

ps.i'm kindda broke nowadays =X

my candy man dream (=

PUNK'D
08:48

Thursday, October 18, 2007

its thursdae,was late for sch todae!!
forgot to set my alarm last night,lucky my mom,
the biggest alarm clock i ever have wake me up slightly later.
haas

anyway,really wanna take this chance to thanks all whom went thru all those shits with me.
its stinks though
you guys pulled me thru it!!
especially when i need someone to puke out all my unhappiness,unfariness!!

*bow bow bow*

went cck kbox yty night with ping,clement,cassan,and that master of mine tys!!
we end up going another outlet,clementi

----NOTICE----
cck kbox has closed down
so don go there anymore eh

kbox was on little promo this weekdays $5+++
cheap cheap cheap!!
the best thing was,i saw my ex-colleague (captain kx)
still surviving at kbox!!
we sang lik nobody business
own time own target
no limitations!!

thank me thank me!!
hahaas
anyway,fun night out!!

ohyea!!
got a small present from this little frend
its chocolate!!
its not jus any normal chocolate
it taste really different
forgot wadd brand it was,update you guys tml
can give it a try ehs!!

another day of dream (:

PUNK'D
12:22

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

its wednesdae,yty night was a terrible one for me.

i cried again.

i've tried my very best not to contact you.

i couldm't control myself so i msg you to remind you for your meal.

i din know i was that irritating,sorry.

went tangs wid huiling and fion yty night.

saw him at GSTAR.

my heart beats damn fast.

nv have such feelings for long.

i was scared,panicking.

but afterall,i din have the courage to talk to him.

i seems to be lik an enemy to him.

he really don wanna see me.

but why do i have to appear there.

so angry with myself.

know that he's working i still msg him.

if he's free after work,for a chat,i'll wait.

its RIDICULOUS!!

i'm not even his fren i guess.

not even at a position to talk with.

he say he's goin out after work.

nvr will i expect myself to send another mas after i cried.

in chinese,jus for a 5mins chat??

i pissed him off,i'm irritating.

he don wanna see me so much that he would rather quit that job.

i'll nvr appear in tangs again.

not again.

this blow is enough for me.

all the words from him.

so hurting,so pain.

i don even bear to leave tangs.

all i can do was to stand opposite GSTAR peek at him.

every mins,every moves.

seems near,yet so far.

he's so unreachable.

now i know how he feel towards me,i'll not bother him again.

no matter how much i misses him.

i'll try,and i must try.

went back hm kindda late yty.

i was too down,they accompanied me.

telling them my grandmother story.

how sweet we used to be,how did all this things got ruined in my hands.

afterall,i nv stop blaming myself.

its hard for me not to,i really regret.

everyday is a dream

everyday is a new day

a new dream

in a dream

you can anything and everything

after a good night slp

the moment you wake up

the dream is over

everything that happened is only a dream

therefore

do wadever you wan

you can

every new day new dream

i wanna treat my day as my dream

i know,in my dream i couldn't have you.

but at least

i've dreamt of you before

the happiness that we shared tgt before.

i nvr wanna wake up from that sweet sweet dream

but,i still have to wake up

in order to step into another dream

looking forward (:

PUNK'D
10:42

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

its tuesdae,in sch now.

i'm pretty free now!!

slack and lazing ard in my studio.

got a new phone!! its just like a pda phone.

LOVE IT!!

although there's no camera,but i don need one.

i hab camera in my another phone!!

yeppie!!

well,yty acc my part-time bf for shopping spree.

but i seems to get nthing and she got everything!!

there's shorts,3/4pants,shirt,bag and get her hair cut!!

terrible

but i enjoyed her companion yty,that was sweet!!

nice feeling today!!

meeting huiling and fion this late afternoon at town area.

still pondering where to go later.

i'm broke,no more pariss international BUFFET!!

ohman!!

i wanna go ikea cafe for food!!

the meatballs,aww.

drool drool drool =Pp

actually intended to call him for dinner there.

but i din hab the courage.

not a single % of courage

-sigh-

caught some pictures of the 149bucks dress.

TAKE A LOOK!!

PUNK'D
08:56

Monday, October 15, 2007

its mondae,mondae blues!!
thanks to that special person,his msg really able to make my day BRIGHTEN!!
aww
feeling so nice todae
its raining,but i'm not emo =)

going peninsula widd my part-time bf xinying (is a she =X) later on.
I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER LATER!!
miss all our craps and starbucks
but we'll be shopping later!!
i'm gonna top up my clothes in my wardrobe.

sad ):
my mom just complained this morning that my wardrobe is exploding.
she's trying to squeeze my clothes nicely in place
hahaas

ohyars
jus bought a dress and a shirt last saturdae
both cost me a boom!!
100% silk dress-$149/=
semi-translucent top-$73/=
my goodness!!

but i loved them!!!
loves loves loves

i want my wardrobe goes exploding!!
(:

PUNK'D
11:02

Sunday, October 14, 2007

its sundaee
haven't been writing for afew daes.
kindda busy,or in another words,wanna make myself pretty busy.
ease me and get me off from eveything.

i dunno if i'm doing the right thing,i dunno if you'll find me a nuisance for msging you everyday.
reminding you for your meals.
but such act has became my habit.

anyway,today is just a very normal dae for me.
went marina sq
WORKING!!
today's sales pretty good,commission rising!!
after doing alittle bit of sales,my pattern came out again.
went to slack (eat snake)wid covermark kawaii tokyo and amino collagen,for whole 3hrs!!
my goodness
i cant imagine i did that just now.
todaee's mood pretty hungry,been eating and eating non-stop.
even now,eating a super duper big pau.
and its really damn big,made from my mom.
aww

i'll stay as cheerful as i am.
no matter wadd you'd said to me that morning.
no matter how much i explain its no use.
use your own eyes to see,and ears to hear.

PUNK'D
21:33

Friday, October 12, 2007

its fridaee,in school now,jus get over widd all my project stuffs.

early in the morning,6.15am.

he msg me...

never will i expect our conversation will be lik that.

why do you wanna judge me jus from frendster.

somewhere which i doesm't live widd anymore.

contacting me wid less than 5mins for that past few days,you think you know all about me.

i tried my very best to give all explanation,as much as i can.

how much do i have to explain,what do you wan me to do,to let you believe me?

you mean so much too me,but every words that came out from you were so harsh.

too harsh,nv thought of how i'll feel.

from 6.15am to 7.30am,at hm.

don wanna let my mom knows a single thing,i hold back my tears.

when i'm on my way to school,

blasting rnb into my ears NON-STOP

but just one msg from you,my eyes were filled widd tears.

covering the whole of my eyes,i couldn't see,seems so blur.

tears flushed down from my eyes,all the way to my face.

dripping onto my hands and floor.

i couldn't stop my tears at all.

such an embarrassment.

when i reach dover,my eyes were covered widd tears.

at that instance,all i needed was you and your trust.

i know its asking too much for your trust,i'm sorry.

all i wanted was to face the barrier and not to cover up all the barrier.

maybe,we've got different point of views.

i respect you,like how i wish you can respect me.

when i say "ipraythatyourheartformeistrue,cosiloveyou"

i prayed every single day without fail.

"heaven is not blind"

this was from you,and i'm sure heaven can see and knows what i'm doing.

its my fault for showing attitude,hard on you.

but this is me.

"she will show attitude only to him,bcos' she wanna let herself feel important.

she's afraid of getting hurt,she wanna made herself feel important from him."

"she's a perfectionist,she expect no changes before and after getting into r/s."

"when she's loyal to you,she's very loyal."

you can judge me as much as you like,but why do you choose to give me such a judgement.

you never know what i've went through for those days.

PUNK'D
09:07

Thursday, October 11, 2007

its a thursdae,yet i'm at hm,resting and slacking.feeling kindda sick.
went to plush!! widd ruiping,lucas and that bunch of anna's frends.

i thought i've recovered from all the misses,hugs and concerns.
i thought he's been erased.
i thought i don't miss him anymore.
i thought i don need him at all.
In the fact,after making myself drink,making myself dance,sweat,tired,sleepy.

i felt worst.
i didn't sleep well,right before slp,i even try giving him a call.
but still its off.
i don know if it was on purpose or his phone was spoilt.
all i wanted was just to hear your voice,see if you're doing alright.
i know there's no turning back,neither did i expect him to do anything.
i've been denying this fact all along.
i couldn't imagine myself lost without you.
i felt so miserable for the moment.

but at the same time,i see the importance of frendship.
without them,i couldn't stand any much stronger.
thanks peeps

PUNK'D
13:27