the meticulous bytch

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

its tuesdaee evening
seems kind of strange for me to be at home right now at this hour uhs
but i'm really at home
havent been updating my bloggy for long
was kinda busy with ???
i dont even know what i'm really busy dealing with lately
haas

but this few weeks there's lots of happenings to be..
said and unsaid?
done and undone?

i find myself in a lost now
i dont know where i'm really standing
what i'm really doing
what i'll be encountering
and loads
yet
i choose to let go this,what i called
"a burden"
it does took me quite sometime to make this decision
which i've decided to withdraw from interior design

yea yea
one might think its wrong
but
i'm dealing with my own life,holding my own future in my hands
not anyone else
i dont live for anyone but myself

i find no reason why i should stay on in DID
of cos'
everyones' saying, nagging, spouting
the same old thing all over my ears
but i dont give a damn thing about it

what...
just go on with one more yr?
just tolerate?
i've wasted money?
i've wasted the whole 2yrs?

i know i can pull through this last year if i really wants to
i know i can tolerate these struggles (i've struggled 2yrs!)
i know i've wasted the sch fees
i know i've wasted my 2yrs of youth
but i gained loads in this 2yrs
i see clear what a society will be like
i see hypocrites all ard me everyday when i'm in sch
i see true friends
they stayed with me (:
i see the you whom's really worried when i cried
"thanks my dear, and you vivien,shuting!(:"

with this 2yrs i made an exchange
i've got something more than anyone longed for
you'll nvr know the ones that stayed with you
you called true friends,might be your foes the very next day
you nvr know until you face what i've been facing yea

impact might be small,"small"
but it still takes time for one to realise to face it
honestly,i still cant accept this route that i've chosen
but time shows everything
i'll make sure i will find my way out

but still
i'll slack for the moment!
LOLs
cos' CNY is ard the corner ehs
hees

well,this is just part of stress released
another part is about him
my always adore
i've something to say to him
but i dont know if he'll be browsing thru this blog
still..

"i'm really sorry my dear,its been hard on you to really tolerate my temper and attitude.these few weeks,fights have nvr ended btw us.i hope last night's talk has really placed a full stop(.) our quarrels yars!but of cos' i'll not place a stop in my effort,i'll put in more effort to stop my attitude problem alright (:
WE SHALL SEE!haaas
i know i'll lose you if i still dont realise it.
you made me realise my mistakes
and you gave me another chance which i longed for
you've nvr give up on me
and i'll nvr give up on myself
thank you dear,my dearest da huai dan!"

PUNK'D
18:50

Friday, January 4, 2008

gosh!
seems like i havent have much time to update my blog this few weeks of holidaes >.<
sorry guys,was kinda busy with my workloads
and im feeling sleepy now
just had a bath
back from far east
SHOPPING! =D

i nvr have enough with my shopping spree
haas
ever since yty things are different
cos' "dagua", whom i treat her as an elder sister to me
moved in!
move in?
yea!to my place!
one of my room was rented out to her (:

we nvr stop
our conversation
our jokes
our laughter
everynight!!

im loving' it
LOL

my goodness
i couldnt update you peeps much tonight
so sorry ):
im so damn tired

nitey nite!
sweety dreams

mycandyman dream (:

PUNK'D
01:49