the meticulous bytch

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

its wednesdae,yty night was a terrible one for me.

i cried again.

i've tried my very best not to contact you.

i couldm't control myself so i msg you to remind you for your meal.

i din know i was that irritating,sorry.

went tangs wid huiling and fion yty night.

saw him at GSTAR.

my heart beats damn fast.

nv have such feelings for long.

i was scared,panicking.

but afterall,i din have the courage to talk to him.

i seems to be lik an enemy to him.

he really don wanna see me.

but why do i have to appear there.

so angry with myself.

know that he's working i still msg him.

if he's free after work,for a chat,i'll wait.

its RIDICULOUS!!

i'm not even his fren i guess.

not even at a position to talk with.

he say he's goin out after work.

nvr will i expect myself to send another mas after i cried.

in chinese,jus for a 5mins chat??

i pissed him off,i'm irritating.

he don wanna see me so much that he would rather quit that job.

i'll nvr appear in tangs again.

not again.

this blow is enough for me.

all the words from him.

so hurting,so pain.

i don even bear to leave tangs.

all i can do was to stand opposite GSTAR peek at him.

every mins,every moves.

seems near,yet so far.

he's so unreachable.

now i know how he feel towards me,i'll not bother him again.

no matter how much i misses him.

i'll try,and i must try.

went back hm kindda late yty.

i was too down,they accompanied me.

telling them my grandmother story.

how sweet we used to be,how did all this things got ruined in my hands.

afterall,i nv stop blaming myself.

its hard for me not to,i really regret.

everyday is a dream

everyday is a new day

a new dream

in a dream

you can anything and everything

after a good night slp

the moment you wake up

the dream is over

everything that happened is only a dream

therefore

do wadever you wan

you can

every new day new dream

i wanna treat my day as my dream

i know,in my dream i couldn't have you.

but at least

i've dreamt of you before

the happiness that we shared tgt before.

i nvr wanna wake up from that sweet sweet dream

but,i still have to wake up

in order to step into another dream

looking forward (:

PUNK'D
10:42