the meticulous bytch

Friday, October 12, 2007

its fridaee,in school now,jus get over widd all my project stuffs.

early in the morning,6.15am.

he msg me...

never will i expect our conversation will be lik that.

why do you wanna judge me jus from frendster.

somewhere which i doesm't live widd anymore.

contacting me wid less than 5mins for that past few days,you think you know all about me.

i tried my very best to give all explanation,as much as i can.

how much do i have to explain,what do you wan me to do,to let you believe me?

you mean so much too me,but every words that came out from you were so harsh.

too harsh,nv thought of how i'll feel.

from 6.15am to 7.30am,at hm.

don wanna let my mom knows a single thing,i hold back my tears.

when i'm on my way to school,

blasting rnb into my ears NON-STOP

but just one msg from you,my eyes were filled widd tears.

covering the whole of my eyes,i couldn't see,seems so blur.

tears flushed down from my eyes,all the way to my face.

dripping onto my hands and floor.

i couldn't stop my tears at all.

such an embarrassment.

when i reach dover,my eyes were covered widd tears.

at that instance,all i needed was you and your trust.

i know its asking too much for your trust,i'm sorry.

all i wanted was to face the barrier and not to cover up all the barrier.

maybe,we've got different point of views.

i respect you,like how i wish you can respect me.

when i say "ipraythatyourheartformeistrue,cosiloveyou"

i prayed every single day without fail.

"heaven is not blind"

this was from you,and i'm sure heaven can see and knows what i'm doing.

its my fault for showing attitude,hard on you.

but this is me.

"she will show attitude only to him,bcos' she wanna let herself feel important.

she's afraid of getting hurt,she wanna made herself feel important from him."

"she's a perfectionist,she expect no changes before and after getting into r/s."

"when she's loyal to you,she's very loyal."

you can judge me as much as you like,but why do you choose to give me such a judgement.

you never know what i've went through for those days.

PUNK'D
09:07